Life is Beautiful

There are some things in our lives that we will never understand. And sometimes, the best way for us to keep our sanity after every babbling moment is to give up trying to comprehend everything. We just have to accept that things happen for reasons beyond our understanding; and experiencing such things is an inevitable fact of life. This is why it’s important for us to hold on to our principles, and to have faith in the things that make us continue our pilgrimage to our individual destinations. Having such unchangeable beliefs in life make us grounded, and it’s what we hold on to at each change of tides, at each strong flow of life’s current.

 

I woke up yesterday in the same paralysis I had been in the past three days. The ceiling greeted me with the same emptiness it projected each morning, and my eyes blinked, as it felt sore from the preceding nights of inexorable tears. My head ached in some sort of hang over – although it wasn’t caused by alcohol. I wished I never had to stand up from that state; I wished I could stay in bed the entire day. I never had to stand up, actually. Our group’s AVP for DEVC50 was already done and the presentation of it wouldn’t exactly need my participation. I could skip my last meeting for the semester, and I could sulk in the apartment all day long. But I didn’t want to remain stagnant, and for this reason, I stood up.

 

That mere decision of having to stand up from my bed that morning made all the difference. “Life is beautiful,” I said under my breath.

 

I literally jumped off my bed, went to my wardrobe to plan my day’s attire as I usually do in feel good mornings, and picked a white dress. I laid it on my bed, looked at for a while and thought of purple accessories to go along with it. Then I got my towel from where it hung in the closet, and skipped to the shower. I knew I looked childish and pathetic. My mom would probably even call me crazy if she saw me. But that was the moment I made for myself, the moment I decided to be happy.

 

The day went perfect, and there was no moment wherein the deficiencies I thought I had in my life came across my mind. During the presentations of our popularized projects in DEVC50, since I was seated at the back, I drew a line across a page of my notebook separating it into two columns. The first column was headed “Things I should be grateful for” and the other was, “Negative things that bog me down”.  It surprised me to see how my list went through four more pages of the good things I currently have in my life. As compared to the negative things, it didn’t even reach half a page. That was the moment when I realized how much I had been focusing too much on the bad things that happen to me, when in fact, I had more to believe in – I had more to be happy about. And my recent mentality of boring myself too much into the unhappy facts of my life was such an unfair thing to do. Unfair to me, unfair to the people who make my days, unfair to the lessons I’m learning, and most especially, unfair to the life I’m leading.

 

My girlfriends and I spent the night together; doing all the fun things no one can ever imagine us doing. We dared each other into hilarious antics. Antics such as: approaching a complete stranger to ask certain favors from, disturbing flirting couples in one of the benches by sitting next to them while humming with the loudest volume one can ever generate, and lastly, by stopping a jogging Korean lady just to have a picture with her. Ha ha. I honestly have never laughed as much as I had last night. And I have my girl friends to thank for that. Though, I apologize to those we deliberately disturbed. He he.

 

When I got to the apartment, I felt grateful for the morning that woke me up yesterday. I felt accomplished for having to feel happy the whole day. Because there were so many little things I took for granted for too long already and realizing them again was what saved me from me. I freshened up, got into my pajamas and went back to my bed. Smiling, I closed my eyes happy.

 

This is what will be keeping me grounded despite all the incomprehensible happenings in my life: Life is beautiful, and will always be, as long as you find enough courage to accept it and have faith in its beauty.

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